Lost my best friend 😭
Posted: Tue Apr 19, 2022 6:15 pm
Hi,
I don’t know where to start with but hoping it all makes sense.
I lost my best friend late Sunday night, she was my everything, I got her when she was a tiny kitten and she turned 14 nearly 6 months ago. I’m so upset, feeling guilty, worthless, helpless, unmotivated to do anything, can’t stop crying.
I think the worst thing is that it all happened so suddenly within about 1 and a half hours from getting to the vets, she was put to sleep. I’m so worried I rushed into it. She was doing fine, started to walk a bit slow at times going up and downstairs but I just put that down to her age, then Sunday she was also fine, she was sat on the sofa went and had something to eat then went upstairs, I then went up about 30 mins later and she had been sick at least 3/4 times and then saliva sick, I picked her up but she couldn’t stand or move her back or back legs and was panting and breathing so heavy I’ve never been so scared in my whole life. I panicked and just immediately phoned the emergency vet, took her straight in, the vet asked question of what had happened etc, she’s an indoor cat so definitely not eaten anything she shouldn’t have, he then weighed her and put her on the floor and said she was in a critical condition and needed to put onto oxygen straight away He then came back to me and explained the options how they could do tests to find out the cause of it but that as she was paralysed and struggling to breathe to the panting, she may go under more stress from all the tests and procedures and could pass away while these are being done and he advised that when he’s seen cats like this especially at her age, the best thing to do would be to put to her sleep to stop her from suffering further and being in anymore pain. I really didn’t want to put her to sleep, but I also couldn’t imagine her being in pain and didn’t want to put my selfish needs above what may have been best for her. So we decided to put her to sleep, I held her when the vet did the injection, kissed her and told her how sorry I was and how much I loved her
I’m just so heartbroken and don’t know what to do, I’m now worrying that i made the wrong decision and maybe should have had some tests done but then didn’t want her passing away without me with her.
The vet did say of multiple things it could be, most one being a blood clot or tumour, after coming up and looking this all up , to me it seems she could have had something called saddle thrombus.
Has anyone been through similar, would you have done the same thing? How did you manage to get through this and all the guilt.
I still expect to see her when I go into the rooms she slept in most, and it then breaks my heart all over again.
Sorry about the long post and if you’ve read it, thank you for taking the time out of your day xx
I don’t know where to start with but hoping it all makes sense.
I lost my best friend late Sunday night, she was my everything, I got her when she was a tiny kitten and she turned 14 nearly 6 months ago. I’m so upset, feeling guilty, worthless, helpless, unmotivated to do anything, can’t stop crying.
I think the worst thing is that it all happened so suddenly within about 1 and a half hours from getting to the vets, she was put to sleep. I’m so worried I rushed into it. She was doing fine, started to walk a bit slow at times going up and downstairs but I just put that down to her age, then Sunday she was also fine, she was sat on the sofa went and had something to eat then went upstairs, I then went up about 30 mins later and she had been sick at least 3/4 times and then saliva sick, I picked her up but she couldn’t stand or move her back or back legs and was panting and breathing so heavy I’ve never been so scared in my whole life. I panicked and just immediately phoned the emergency vet, took her straight in, the vet asked question of what had happened etc, she’s an indoor cat so definitely not eaten anything she shouldn’t have, he then weighed her and put her on the floor and said she was in a critical condition and needed to put onto oxygen straight away He then came back to me and explained the options how they could do tests to find out the cause of it but that as she was paralysed and struggling to breathe to the panting, she may go under more stress from all the tests and procedures and could pass away while these are being done and he advised that when he’s seen cats like this especially at her age, the best thing to do would be to put to her sleep to stop her from suffering further and being in anymore pain. I really didn’t want to put her to sleep, but I also couldn’t imagine her being in pain and didn’t want to put my selfish needs above what may have been best for her. So we decided to put her to sleep, I held her when the vet did the injection, kissed her and told her how sorry I was and how much I loved her
I’m just so heartbroken and don’t know what to do, I’m now worrying that i made the wrong decision and maybe should have had some tests done but then didn’t want her passing away without me with her.
The vet did say of multiple things it could be, most one being a blood clot or tumour, after coming up and looking this all up , to me it seems she could have had something called saddle thrombus.
Has anyone been through similar, would you have done the same thing? How did you manage to get through this and all the guilt.
I still expect to see her when I go into the rooms she slept in most, and it then breaks my heart all over again.
Sorry about the long post and if you’ve read it, thank you for taking the time out of your day xx