Struggling to cope
Posted: Wed Nov 04, 2020 7:17 pm
I lost my beautiful girl and i cant stop crying.
It was so sudden. My boyfriend and i noticed she hadnt been eating in the last 24hrs so i contacted an emergency vet. They told me it i shouldnt be too concerned because shes alert.
The next day she still hadnt eaten so my boyfriend took her in for tests.
I got the call from him in work that they had ran tests and she has kidney failure. It could have come on so suddenly and theres nothing we can do. She was really suffering.
We had to make the decision for her to be put to sleep or leave her on a drip which wouldnt have done much but prolong it at that point.
Due to covid i couldnt be in the room with her when it happened. I got 10 mins with her in the car before i had to give her back. I feel like i left her and im devistated.
I keep wondering if this is some how my fault. The vet assured me it isnt and it just happens to cats sometimes but my dad asked me "what i fed her" and now i cant stop thinking i didnt do something i should of. I literally loved her more than anything in the world and now shes gone.
This cat has been the most stable thing in my life for 6 years and helped me out of my depression, now i dont know what to do because i feel like my heart is broken to pieces.
I got her a few months into moving into my flat and im due to move soon and i just want to be out faster now because it doesnt feel like a home anymore.
I feel like im annoying all my friends with it because i cant stop thinking about her.
When will the pain stop?
It was so sudden. My boyfriend and i noticed she hadnt been eating in the last 24hrs so i contacted an emergency vet. They told me it i shouldnt be too concerned because shes alert.
The next day she still hadnt eaten so my boyfriend took her in for tests.
I got the call from him in work that they had ran tests and she has kidney failure. It could have come on so suddenly and theres nothing we can do. She was really suffering.
We had to make the decision for her to be put to sleep or leave her on a drip which wouldnt have done much but prolong it at that point.
Due to covid i couldnt be in the room with her when it happened. I got 10 mins with her in the car before i had to give her back. I feel like i left her and im devistated.
I keep wondering if this is some how my fault. The vet assured me it isnt and it just happens to cats sometimes but my dad asked me "what i fed her" and now i cant stop thinking i didnt do something i should of. I literally loved her more than anything in the world and now shes gone.
This cat has been the most stable thing in my life for 6 years and helped me out of my depression, now i dont know what to do because i feel like my heart is broken to pieces.
I got her a few months into moving into my flat and im due to move soon and i just want to be out faster now because it doesnt feel like a home anymore.
I feel like im annoying all my friends with it because i cant stop thinking about her.
When will the pain stop?